day seven…

day seven and still thwarting chaos. and in that chaos is subtle, divine clarity and calm. so all is well! i believe that nothing is really that big of a deal. so we deal with it. and roll.

my summer travel plans and spiritual pilgrimage obviously have plans of their own. i am in flow with it. it looks as if monday i’ll be heading east now. that is if none of my ideas manifest into housing. partly things are more “difficult” this time because i refuse to live as most fairfielders and visitors do- in shambles. and as i’ve done here in the past. house hopping, couch surfing and the like.

which brings me to my other concerns. why are all the houses here dilapidated? why are people so apparently downtrodden? people put up with an awful lot of shit just so they can “stay in fairfield.”

i refuse to live out of my car. we did that already. like five years ago. i’ve worn patchwork. i’ve spanged on the side of the road. i’ve begged for a roof and shower before. so over it. if things can’t be comfortable (and i don’t just mean freshies and bowl of hot food) than it simply won’t work. thank you very much.

the standards are higher these days. and rightfully so. i am deserving. and this jupiter period is helping me to set the computer programming for long term hard-drive success. so a week in the dome it is i guess. isn’t time inconsequential anyway?……too bad. sigh. there are such sweet moments here. and i really wanted to be here for guru purnima and my birthday…..

but there have been some magical intellectual experiences to document. i now have validation that my intuition is more right on than i realized prior. my beingness is quite on point. and the truest expression of this is, the sweetness of Self that i’ve felt in relative existence (houston and the like) is exactly the same here in fairfield and in the dome. same experiences inside meditation and outside of meditation. it appears that it doesn’t really matter where i am these days. i’m tapped in. i’ve arrived. and now i know it. being continues to be seamless. refreshing really….

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